With, this 'I' concluded our relationship.
I remembered the first conversation (confirmation talk?) we had before we started out - despite all the betrayals.
" Joel, If you don't want to get married at the end of this relationship. I rather we stop talking.We'll be wasting each other's time (mainly mine?) . I don't want to have you say 'sorry, kate... I realise I don't want this anymore . ' Time is precious, especially to me. I don't want to waste 2years of my life ,only to have you say that to me."
I guess with all that any retard can deduce that by him saying he can't marry me anymore equates to the relationship not going on anymore.
He goes on...
'I haven't had a good night's sleep in the last few days... and I never ever had problems sleeping,like ever.'
'I've been thinking about you and us alot, and it just doesn't feel right.'
'Even,you noticed it in my voice yesterday... I don't have the enthusiasm anymore.'
As the conversation went (or rather as he rant on) on...My heart started sinking ...my finger started turning cold.
My body started trembling.
'and,when I think about not coming,I feel relieved... '
' there are just so many extremes to our relationship ,things that I really love and things that I really hate, and some of our history will always, always be there, as long as we are together.'
There was so much more he said...
It trips me out just typing the conversation we had.
That was 6am in the morning.
Ironically, I felt a sense of clarity despite a sense of spiteful bitterness (maybe not, bitterness but sadness).
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3 comments:
kate
you dont need a man that doesnt appreciate your enthusiasm and wild personality
stay true to who you are and what you want to be
dont be a pet to others
sincerely
ben
People change, you can't expect him to have known what both of you would have turned out like at this moment.but Fcuk him, a waste of time anyway
he is a selfish prick.
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