A few more days.

I know I'll miss Andy BAD when he's gone. We've been very happy together and sorts. Remember when I said, Joel always made me feel second best and inadequate.

Andy, on the other hand, makes me feel good about myself .

Feels as if he loves/cares (about) me more than Joel does.

Despite being here for a shorter period of time and being much younger than Joel. He's always been there for me everyday and when I am upset.

Despite, sleeping and seeing me while I was with Joel. He never went out with another girl. He's always really honest with me. ( Or, I assume)

He's never secretive when using the computer. Always informing when he's going out and coming home.

Joel, on the other hand, had to take a 'break' and fuck around before finally being ready to settle with me. It just makes me all the more disgusted.

He's out picking up some weed now.

We had a wonderful day out yesterday.

Bought each other presents and exchanged them.

I know, Scotland isn't too far away from London. However, he is moving to South America to live with his Mom as soon as he gets back.

It's annoying, isn't it ?

We'll be heading to Camden Town tomorrow and hopefully Hatfield finally this time.

I'll miss you, Andy.

Scotland.

I might be heading there this July to spend some time with Andy. However, I wonder even if I went what good would it do any of us ? (Although, extra sex would be great. :) He's that good)

Andy picked me up from work over the weekends. We had the little chat.

'Long distance relationship wouldn't work.'

'Maybe, it wouldn't . Look at what happen to Joel and I. ', I giggled.

Mom's been calling me trying to 'console' me.

It makes me chuckle everytime she says, ' It's okay, I despise him. He isn't good for you anyway. Don't get too upset and kill yourself.'

Kill myself ? That's the furthest thing from anything I would do.

Joel's not even worth a tear. Ha ha...

I'm actually pretty happy we broked up. Just means that I'm able to freely meet people who are more suited for myself.

& Just goes to show how blind he is ... And, everything that I predicted and thought was true. Me, being a checklist, whatsoever.

Mom said that Joel's just a little selfish boy hiding behind his Mom's apron. And, that if he's probably helping his Mom line her menstruation pad.

The last few time we chatted he was always with his Mom... Driving her around all day... Watching 'Confession of a Shopaholic' with her ?

I guess, his Mom must be really happy we've broken up.



Anyway, Scotland ? Maybe ?