repetition

Sex, has become an almost meaningless repetition of body movement.

Do you actually enjoy it ? 

I meant, yes, Its enjoyable but once it gets beyond the 'orgasm-ed(s)'.

Okay, maybe the once in awhile intimate cuddling - with the one you desire/love (w/o the BO)

What does it really mean anymore?

I remember the first couple of 'new' jobs were the hardest. Having to 'do' those ugly toads you never had to, if it weren't for a 'cause' or for that stack of greenbacks - blue notes - whatever. 

*I'm sorry guys. The money was never easy.

 After having dinner with the ex-fling, his date & WG. 

 The ex-fling/chris and I spoke over MSN. 

 He told me he can see why I'm with WG, though we don't look very much like a couple. 

 WG's too reserved, quiet, not as out-going & terd-ish - not quite the guy he thought I would end up with.


I'll try to post the convo if I'm able to find it.

 

Tricks.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TamOrADrhwc&feature=player_embedded# .

I like this song.

WG's heading over to asia pretty soon.

It would be his first trip down. I hope he behaves.

He would be having a couple of 'DJ-ing' gigs.

I wonder if I trust him enough. Though, deep down I know that the person I crave for is Andy.

Everything's pretty plain sailing with WG.

We met up with one of the ex-flings today for lunch - double date. Sushi Train ?

 It was a little awkward.  Bah, but who cares.

 We haven't had sex for 2 fking weeks now. Gosh, I wonder. What the fuck is wrong with this guy.

I'm use to getting fucked everyday - this drought is horrible. Thank god, for the tricks I needed to turn the last two weeks if not...


I don't see how this relationship is going to work out. But, he isn't listening when I tell him its actually over.


Or,maybe I'm just a sucker for 'persistence' as usual.

sleep.

I'm just so terrible at uploading photos.

Its 3:13am now. Falling asleep at my own apartment's becoming quite a task. Maybe its too much of falling asleep - fitfully on those Egyptian Sheets from random hotels or the 4days a week at WG home + 2days a week at a schoolmate's place.

What's the point of having my own place anymore ? When i'm only home 1-2times a week.

I'm planning to rent a 2bedroom next year, if finance allows. I'll operate from my own place.

When its all done and over with

, its just a box of leftovers - left.

O well... Last week I received a parcel - box actually, from Joel.
So, I guess, when the relationship is all done over with. Its just 81.95USD, 5kgs worth of leftover belongings & silence.

The things he sent were mostly Junk. What I really wanted back was my iTouch given my ex-girlfriend, a couple of  drawings I did & my favorite Ed Hardy cap.

Not the socks or knickers I left there. What a retard, spending 81.95 to send all that junk. But, I guess he needed closure as much  as I did.


Do I really need all this crap ?

However, I'm glad he sent it anyway.

 Ps : Was having some technical problems with the Lappy this week.

 No more jobs for the year, I've earned enough to live comfortably for the next 2months ?